Saturday, January 7, 2012

Fertility part 3

Two years ago Adam and I started on this journey to try and bring a child into this world. Who would have thought that it would be this hard and emotional? Can I just say that infertility sucks?! I guess at the start I was one of those naive people that thought sure why not let's give it a try, it shouldn't be too hard, people get pregnant and have babies every day. The first few months I wasn't too concerned and knew it would probably take some time. After 6 months we realized that maybe this wouldn't be as easy as we thought....
I spoke to my doctor (2009) when it came close to a year  and he told me to come back at the beginning of the year (2010) if we still weren't pregnant, by this point it is no surprise we weren't. I changed doctors after we moved and I love my doctor now. I started tracking myself and seeing if I could make sense of everything, I couldn't. My doctor sat down and showed us the process he wants to take. I had some tests done that showed that my body wasn't doing some of the things it needed to.
So far we have tried a couple things and one time it worked, but unfortunately the joy was short lived.
The last couple of months we haven't done much in the way of pills or doctors, we just wanted a break from OPK's, temperatures and tracking to see if maybe it would happen on my own since my body "should" know what it needs to do and we were trying not to stress so much about it.
So this brings me to now, over two years ago we started this journey and over two years later we have nothing to show but heartache and disappointment. However, it has brought Adam and I closer together and I feel like we are a stronger couple because of this trial. Some have asked if we have thought about adoption, we have talked about it and are definitely not opposed to it but we feel like we need to try some other things before we start down that road.
My doctor wants me to have an HSG before we go back on Clomid or anything like that. I told myself the first of the year I will get this test, well guess what it is the first of the year and so I guess it is time to start following through. We have also reached the decision we will start seeing an RE (fertility specialist) in February. I keep praying and crossing my fingers that I will be pregnant before then but if not I think it is time to figure out what is wrong with my broken body and get things working like they should. We aren't sure where the new road will take us or what we are going to try but hopefully it is at least a stepping stone to something wonderful.
I don't usually ask this from people but if any of you who read this blog still, can you please keep us in your prayers?

4 comments:

  1. Oh Jen, I'm so sorry! Though I haven't tried to have a child I do have PCOS and was told it would be very, very hard to get pregnant. I will definitely keep you guys in my prayers!

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  2. You already have been in my prayers but I will continue praying even harder for you and Adam! I hope you are able to see the specialist in February.

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  3. So sorry to hear that you have to go thru the painful journey of infertility. It is not fun at all. You guys are always in our prayers and we certainly hope and pray that things work out on your own or with a fertility doctor

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  4. I love you Jen! Your in my prayers. If you ever need anything, please let me know. I know I dont have a fraction of the experience or pain in the matter, I do have a small idea. Let me know if you need ANYTHING.

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