Long time

Can it seriously be almost two months since I have posted anything??
That has to be impossible because that means November is almost over!

I would like to say that I haven't posted because I have been living an exciting life full of adventure, travel and awesomeness but alas that is only in my dreams.
Instead the last two months have been filled with, hmmmm I really don't remember I keep thinking it is still October.

So just for my sake and so maybe I can get back on track lets do a quick re-cap

OCTOBER
I love me some October and even though it didn't go as planned I still loved that month. My month consisted of Three Halloween parties with my Young Women, three people!! I am exhausted but it was so worth it. So even though my house didn't get spookified like I had planned at least I had some Halloween fun.
 Our first Halloween party with the
Young Men and Young Women. We had a cupcake walk, donut eating contest, apple bobbing, pumpkin push and the biggest game of musical chairs ever! I think it was a success.
 Our second Halloween party was a Witches Tea with the older achievement day girls. It was a blast.
I don't have any pictures of our 3rd Halloween party but it involved cookies and Dance Dance Revolution.
 Adam and I went to Cornbelly's with his sisters and brother in laws. These are our crappy cell phone pictures while we waited for everyone to get there. Don't mind our double chins.

NOVEMBER
November isn't over yet but we have still had some fun.
A couple weekends ago I was able to meet up with some of the girls from my ward growing up. Not everyone could make it but we had a great time anyways. I am thinking we need to do it again soon?? I stole a picture from Elisa's Facebook. Thanks Elisa!!

So that is my brief recap so far. I am so proud I actually included pictures this time!

Hopefully there will be more posts coming soon.

Right in front of me

Isn't it amazing how when you are struggling every once in a while what you need is right in front of you.

I try not to discuss religion or get preachy on my blog too often but this is one of those times that I know I am not the only one that can benefit from this.

I attended the General Relief Society Meeting at our stake center this past Saturday, there were some amazing talks but the one talk that really stood out to me was President Uchtdorf's.

He talked about the little flower: Forget-Me-Nots and I will post a link to his entire talk as soon as it is available, but for now here are the basics.

* Forget not to be patient with yourself
* Forget not the difference between good and foolish sacrifices
* Forget not to be happy now
* Forget not the why of the Gospel
* Forget not that the Lord loves you

All of these points I think I had been lacking in my life in one way or another. How complicated yet how simple all of these things are. I left that conference feeling like I had a new out-look on life and the realization that I needed to make some changes for me!



That talk along with this saying (below) that I found today have helped me feel better about life and know that these trials I am having are to make me better and to make me stronger. Even though I may feel like a dark cloud is hanging over me, I know the sun is shining on the other side and it is just waiting to break through.

"God is just making the joys of parenthood sweeter for you by introducing you to the heartache early. Each anxiety we experience produces a greater appreciation for the wonderment that precious children bring into our lives."

Flashback featuring Barbie

If any of you talk to my husband will you tell him that I want this

If you don't know what Barbie that is shame, shame. It is Barbie from Barbie and the Rockers. I saw this doll in the toy store a while back and what a blast from the past. I LOVED Barbie and the Rockers. I watched the movies, I read the books I wanted big huge hair like Barbie had. Oh how I wanted to play a guitar and start a band with my friends.

It makes me laugh that all of these things from my childhood are kind of making a comeback but at the same time I love it!!Happy Friday!

My Struggle continued....

Today is a hard day I am not sure why but it is. I have debated on posting this for a few weeks, it is a little personal plus a little TMI.

I had mentioned a few weeks ago about a struggle that Adam and I had faced but I didn't say exactly what it was. If you haven't already guessed I will share with you.

It was Monday August 1st and I was getting ready to leave for Girl's Camp. I had been feeling a little off and I wondered if maybe this month could be our month. After 19 months of trying could we finally be pregnant? I couldn't wait until after Girl's Camp so I ran to Walmart early that morning. I made Adam wait in the bathroom with me during the longest 3 minutes of my life. I could not believe it, but it said pregnant! Really truly we were pregnant!! Adam cried (don't tell him I shared that) I cried and then I remember that I was leaving for Girl's camp in a few short minutes. :-(
I took a couple tests up to Girl's camp with me because I just couldn't believe it and I wanted to make sure I was still pregnant. I took it easy up at camp and took a test on Thursday while I was up there... still pregnant.
I came home on Friday and Adam had me take another test just for our piece of mind. It was still positive and we were on cloud 9. I could not believe we were finally going to be parents and be adding to our family. I called and made an appointment with my doctor for September, it was finally feeling real. We spent that night talking about what our baby would look like and how and when we wanted to tell our families. It was an amazing feeling.

Then early Saturday morning I woke up all of a sudden and something told me I something was wrong. All I remember is all of the bright red blood(sorry TMI) I just started crying and knew exactly what was happening. It is all little blurry but I ran into the bedroom and woke Adam up and told him I needed a blessing. He of course jumped out of bed because it was early and his wife was standing there crying. I told him there was a lot of blood and I think that I was having a miscarriage. I don't remember much from the blessing but I remember that it gave me such peace and comfort and as upset as I was at that moment and upset at what was happening I knew that we would make it through. Everything after that is a blur I remember trying to go back to sleep and thinking what did I do wrong? How could I have stopped this? We had only known for 5 days that we were pregnant and we didn't even get a chance to celebrate yet, why was this happening? We have some awesome friends that knew what had happened so they tried to get us out of the house to get our minds off of things. It helped but my mind always came back to the fact that there was no longer a baby growing strong and healthy inside me. We called our moms that night because sometimes you just need mom. We have an awesome support system and I have no doubt that we were in a lot of prayers that night.

I know that a lot of women have miscarriages and a lot have them as early as we did (almost 6 weeks) but it is still one of the hardest things we have ever had to deal with. At least we know now that my body knows what it should be doing and that I can get pregnant. I was an emotional, blubbering mess for a few days, every day got a little easier. It still hurts sometimes but I guess that it has only been a month so I assume that it's normal? I am just trying to stay close to my Heavenly Father and my husband and have faith that when it is supposed to happen we will be blessed with the most perfect, wonderful baby for our family. I am excited for friends and family that have their beautiful healthy babies but it is hard right now to be to happy because it makes me want my own baby. It makes me wonder when our turn will come and I feel that ache to hold our own baby in my arms even more now.

I know that my Father in Heaven has a plan for us and I know that this experience has brought Adam and I closer together. We celebrated our 5 year anniversary not even a week after our miscarriage and I love him more today than the day we said "I Do." Here's to month 21 and maybe we will have some good news to share with all of you someday.

Wow that was a long post, sorry about that.

Just Because

Just because I have a lot of stuff floating around in my head and I am hoping to start posting, but I need to post something since it has been a while. I wanted to share this video with you. I think I may enjoy this more than the original. Happy Tuesday!!

For Sale

This was my Grandma's home and the house my mom grew up in. I am posting this for my memories of what her house looked like and because maybe I can help my mom sell it.

I have a lot of great memories in this house and even though it looks a little dated it was a big part of my childhood just the way it was with the rose colored carpet in my Grandma's room and always seeing my grandparents sitting on the front porch when we pulled up. My grandma passed away just over a year ago and it is still so weird to know she won't be there giving out candy to all of the neighborhood kids or taking a stroll around her neighborhood. Sure the house needs a little work and I am sure who ever buys it will change a lot of things. My memories will always be there and this will always be my grandparent's house.
I know that my mom has some great memories in this house and even though she might not say it I think she is really going to miss this house. We did get a lot of amazing stuff when we were cleaning out the house. Lots of pictures of my grandparents that I have never seen, my grandma's wedding dress and all of those little things that I remember from spending lots of time in this home.

As sad as I am to see this house go I know that it is time and so with that I will put a link for the listing. Hopefully someone else will love this house like I did.

http://www.slcity.com/manager/listings/l12639.shtml?#

Utah County

Most of you know I grew up in Salt Lake for most of my life then one day I got married and we bought at house and moved down to UT County. I didn't realize that life would be different away from the SLC but it is.

In Utah County: (we are going to call it the UTC)

*Everyone passes on the right. WTF!? Why are you driving so slow in the fast lane and so fast in the slow lane?

* They don't like stop signs instead they like to have "circles of death" everywhere, I think it is some city planner's demented sense of humor. You don't have a four way stop but you have five lanes all coming to yeild signs at the same time and trying to be the first to make your way through the round-a-bout before you DIE. I am now a pro at driving in a circle, England here I come!

* You should add at least an extra 15 minutes to your drive just in case you get stuck behind a tractor, which happens more often then you would think

* Utah fans do exist in the UTC, although we are few and far between we still bleed RED

*As far as BYU fans go, on game day don't even think about going to Orem or Provo for food it will take you at least twice as long and if you aren't wearing blue be afraid

* Our potholes will swallow your entire car

*Mormon Standard Time is a real thing in the UTC.

* If you love to save with coupons you don't stand a chance at that deal in the UTC

* Costco and the Fabric Stores on a Tuesday at 11:00 am are crazy in the UTC. Imagine Costco on a Saturday in the SLC that is how crazy it is everyday of the week!

I am sure this list will continue to grow but for now that's all I got.

A very "special" flashback for a Friday

Since my flashback for a Friday was pretty awesome last time I thought I would share some super duper awesomeness this week.
Oh Saved By the Bell, how I used to love thee. But to be perfectly honest I still kind of love this show. I just thought for this flashback I will share this very "special" episode that I think helped shape many aspects of my life, especially how every video in the late 80's early 90's had to do with working out. The first video is just the best music video ever but the second video, well what can I say?? Tell me it doesn't make you get all choked up. Enjoy :)



Saved By The Bell: Jesse & The Sundaes from Good Kids. on Vimeo.

Of course the most important part of this very special episode

To Have and to Hold

(this should have posted yesterday but my internet was down, so pretend like it is still August 11th)
5 years ago today........


I married my best friend. Best. Decision. Ever.

4 years ago today......



We decided to make the decision to be together for eternity!

I am about to get a little mushy so hold on tight

Dear Adam,

When I said "I do" 5 years ago I knew I was making a choice that would affect  both of our lives forever. Not once have I regretted that choice. I am so thankful to have you as my husband. I cannot believe we have been together for over 10 years but I wouldn't change a thing. Sometimes it's hard to think that we are not still teenagers getting ready for prom or going to concerts but I am happy that all of those memories I have are with you. Things have not always been easy in our relationship and in the last few years we certainly have had our share of trials. But with those trials we know how much stronger we are together and that we really are blessed. I am so happy to wake up to your face every morning and to be able to fall asleep in your arms every night. You are my best friend, my support, my other half. You make me laugh, take care of me and always find a way put me first. I have never met a more selfless, and caring man and there is no one I would rather have by my side. I am so grateful to have you as my husband for now and all of eternity.
Happy Anniversary my love and here's to an eternity together!


Us through the years......

Checking In

I know it has been a while!

In the past two weeks I have been:

* Getting prepared for Girl's Camp
* Trying to get through the end of the month at work
* Went to Girl's Camp for a whole week!
* Trying to unpack from Girl's Camp, this one is a work in progress
* Signed up for CNA school which I start in a week. Once this class is over I should be able to FINALLY start Nursing school since my pre-requisites have been done for over a year and a half.
* Had a trial that has been one of the hardest I have had to deal with but we are making it through.

I am finally getting back on my feet so look for some new posts to be coming and I have another fantastic Flashback for a Friday coming!

Thanks to all of you who continue to read.

Flashback for a Friday

So I found this awesome video and I figured the five of you that read my blog would appreciate it. Happy Friday!

A Day at the Park

During the summer months we get together with my family, my aunts, uncle, cousins, the whole fam damily as my grandma would say. My dad came up with the idea to go to Copperton park at least once a month as a family. We barbecue, play horseshoes, swing and have races down the slides. We have a blast and the little kids love playing with their cousins. Our last time there was in June and we had a great time.


That is my dad, the biggest kid of them all.

Birthday continued...

I know it has been two weeks since my birthday but I forgot some details for the best birthday in years!

Wednesday the 29th me, Adam and our families all got together at Leatherby's for some over the top delicous ice cream.


Thursday night the birthday festivities continued unbeknownst to me. I was supposed to have a presidency meeting that night but things kept going wrong and I was wondering what in the world was going on that day. I showed up at my friend Maggie's house where the meeting was supposed to be and when she opened the door "SURPRISE!" My counselors were there along with Adam and my secretaries husband. My secretarie's birthday was that Friday so we had a double surprise party. There were home-made cupcakes, brownies, ice cream, balloons and lots of Coke, my favorite! (the drink) Unfortunately I didn't get any pictures...sad.

I had a fantastic birthday this year and it is all thanks to my many wonderful friends and family members!

Thank you

It boils the blood

Ok so I am sure many of you remember the song "We Like to Party (Venga Bus)" and if you don't consider yourself lucky.

 I think it was circa 1998 or 1999.

I was in Junior High and I remember that this song was played EVERYWHERE.

So the reason for this post is because lately they have been playing this song on the radio again and for some reason I can feel my blood pressure rise as soon as that first horn honks.

I. HATE. THIS. SONG.

Even though it may cause me to have a coronary I am going to share the evil that is this song....enjoy and happy Monday!

Someone had a birthday I wonder who?

Is it Narcissistic to talk about your own birthday?

June 28th was my 26th birthday, I am now one year closer to 30, I am not sure how I feel about that.

I had one of the most fantastic birthdays in a long time!!

I had to work during the day but my awesome friend Maggie brought me a super duper yummy cupcake from The Sweet Tooth Fairy. If you haven't been go now!

After work it was time for presents and then off to dinner with the hubby!
Famous Dave's is usually hit or miss for us but they must have known it was my birthday because it was soooo good! After dinner we saw The Green Lantern, it wasn't bad.
When we returned home that evening this is what we found

My young women had an activity to find modest clothing at the D.I. when they were done they decided to come decorate my house, which was awesome on it's own but to top it off they left me that "lovely" dress that they found out shopping. I told them I would wear it but it has been a little warm lately and the shoulder pads might make it a little hot.

Youth Conference 2011

A couple weekends ago I went with a bunch of Young Men and Young Women to Fairview for a few days of fun! There were a lot of stressful days leading up to it and lots of wondering if we could pull it off, but guess what? It was fantastic! We camped, ate, played games and enjoyed the Manti Pageant. Let's just say I was exhausted for about two weeks after but everyone had a fantastic time so it was so worth it! I think I will call my first Youth Conference as a leader a success.

Youth Conference June 16th-18th 2011
"I've Learned for Myself"

Another post with out a title

I have really missed this little blog so I am trying harder to get back to posting more regularly. I have been so busy that I didn't even notice that the post I wrote about Adam's birthday a few weeks ago didn't save so I am sad. I might just post a little something about him even if it is a few weeks late, because I kind of like him A LOT.

We are getting sod tomorrow morning and I am SO SO SO excited we will finally have a complete yard!! We might be poor for a little while because of it, but that is the last big house project for a while until we decide to finish our basement. Making our yard pretty will be a big project but it is one we can do a little at a time.

Young Women's has been taking most of my free time lately, trying to plan Youth Conference and Girl's Camp is a little bit time consuming and stressful. Youth Conference is next week I will let you know how well it all turns out, cross your fingers.

Other than that life is pretty much the same thing as always. I really do miss blogging so hopefully I can get my time better organized so I can get back to posting.

Backyard

Busy, busy, that's where I have been. Now that we finally have had some warmer temps and a few weekends
with out rain we are starting to get our side/back yard in. I have not done a
lot of work yet but Adam has been working his backside off.

We never realized how big our yard was until it was time to put in sprinklers, holy yard! We measured and our backyard is 4200 sq/ft!! It will be so awesome when it is done but right now it is really expensive. Welcome to being a homeowner.

We should be getting the sod put in sometime in the next week or two, I am so excited.
I have been daydreaming about the perfect backyard........

I LOVE this patio set. I am not sure what it is but every time we walk past it at Lowe's I have to stop and sit and look and dream, just ask Adam. It is a little pricey for now it will stay a dream.

I made the mistake of picking up the free magazine at Lowes, can you tell we have been there a lot lately? In that little magazine there were some great ideas like these beautiful cube lights and the best part they had a tutorial on how to make them yourself! You can find that here
I think I might try it.

Then there was this backyard....swoon!! You really need to see the full picture to appreciate it but who wouldn't love to come over for a barbecue to sit here?



This is just a little idea board for my backyard. It probably won't happen until next year but I can dream.

So there you have it my "someday" backyard. I just want a backyard that is comfortable, a place to enjoy our friends and family and some twinkle lights.



Style...I have none

Looking in my closet lately and I realized that I really don't like my clothes. I know this is a very random topic but I am kind of a random person.

I have always been the t-shirt and jeans girl, but I am getting a little tired of it. I just want to have some clothes that are a little more girly, trendy, cute, etc. I have a few dresses that I absolutely love but I don't want to wear dresses all the time. So what brings up this hatred for my clothes?? Part of it is reading blogs where the women are dressed so much better than I am and the kicker is when they share where they got their clothes. Some of them do get clothes from Anthro, which I will never be able to afford, but then there are those that find clothes at Forever 21 or Old Navy. How come when I go shopping there is never anything that cute at any of those stores or that cheap? Like Little Miss Momma she is the cutest thing and can seem to put outfits together that I would never even think of, jealous that is what I am :-)

 One thing I don't understand on some of these blogs is the socks with heels, sandals,etc.

No offense to you if you can pull this look off but I really don't think I could and honestly

I. Just. Don't. Get. It.

I think to start out I need to go through my closet and actually see what I have in there. Then there is the matter of learning to buy the right pieces for my closet, any suggestions on must haves? Third I need money. I really want some new dresses like these

Shabby Apple is a little on the pricey side but I ADORE them. I own one dress from them that I got last year thanks to Groupon. It is the perfect black dress and I want more.

Maybe some day I will have a sense of style but I think I might need a lot of help to get there.